Hello there!
I am still a married woman but abandoned by the husband and left with a four year old son and states away from family and friends and my situation is very much the same as yours. My family and friends cannot help because of the holiday spending or not capable of helping because of limited income. I feel alone as you do and not much help out there at all. I can share with you that I have informed my neighbors of my situation and they have been a big help with services around the area that I live in that I was unaware of. I have also lost 14lbs in the last three weeks since my husband left us, however I cried like a baby for two weeks straight and now I lift my head up high, take one day at a time, one step in front of the other and Trust God, Jesus said "trust no one but God who is in heaven". It is hard going through difficult times but remember, God who is in heaven is not freaking out like we as humans do and waiting on Him is very trying on our patience but from what I have learned with Him is that He always comes in at the last minute. What you did in the past, you need to forgive yourself......."None is Good but God who is in heaven". There is not one of us that is perfect and God does know our heart and God knows your good intentions for yourself and children that He has given to you. If we lived in the same state and town I would say lets help eachother because it is much easier when you have a support system. I am here on the internet as a friend, don't feel like you are alone. Shake off those negative thoughts convince yourself that God is taking care of business, look to Him for all things and rest in the fact that you are loved and Big Daddy who is in heaven is going to take care of you!!!!! He loves unconditionally! Keep your eyes towards heaven, because that is where we are going......earth is school and we are learning by the things we go through and it is not a waste or in vain. In the New World, the joy that you will have is like taking a small measure of joy from everyone who has been born here and all that joy contained within you........Your Joy will be full!!!! He has promised us that ......read and believe all of His promises, live them and walk them .........Remember it is the devil that has but a short time and he seeks whom he may destroy. "He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world". Take Care and write back if you like.
